to hell with economics

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It sucks.

No actually just the exams suck. And I'm supposed to be doing it for another two years (cue quarter-life crisis wtf). Sigh ok heat is STILL killing me and I'm falling asleep in front of my computer. Bye.

I know you don't think that I am trying, I know you're wearing thin down to the core

): ): ):

I've been running.

No aim, no destination. Just as long as it got me away from everything.

I've been running for so long I've forgotten what it's like to sit down and face my thoughts head on. I've been so preoccupied with leaving everything behind I didn't realize that at one point I would have to stop. And now that I have, it doesn't matter how fast I was or how far I got because everything's caught up with me.

Now I can't run anymore.

I can't run, and I can't walk. It's all I can do right now just to stop from staying here and not moving at all.

this fairytale ending

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HAPPY ONE-YEAR ANNIVESARY FAIRY AND MRSNIFFLES! (:

I'm so happy for you guys + wish you all the best :DDD

Love, WILLS

meet me halfway, right at the borderline

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Happy first of November everybody!

In an annoyingly (for you, not me :D) good mood cause one, got my sleeping times back to somewhat normal. Slept at midnight and woke up at 9am! The last time that happened was.....never lol. And two, had loads of fun for Halloween at Se7en! Haha introducing the awesome characters from the night:

ryan the gladiator, weelim the someone-from-a-Shakespeare play, wenting the french maid, policewoman :D, nicole the vampiress, izzie the snow princess, michele the fairy!

sha the grecian princess + jiahlit the geelong footie player :D

shen the schoolgirl/gossip girl's nellie yuki!! (;

THIS PIC FREAKS ME OUT wth.

eric the ringleader and the vampiress sharing blood eeeeee.

albie the (convicted) construction worker + liz the pirate :DD

sher the ladybug :D

And yea the others didn't really dress up rawrrr. But it was legendary :D seriously. Definitely worthy of a last-night-of-fun-before-exams thing. Okay more pics before I head off to the library to mug (oh joy)!

My handcuffs broke ): halfway through the night from...excessive use by others hahah. Ok bye! Mwah (:

of pixies, elves and santarinas

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Hello I have a dilemma. Halloween party tomorrow and I still haven't decided on a costume. IDEAS PLEASE?? And the next smart ass who suggests going as "myself" is going to get it rawr.

Oh and here's a video of "Time" from Flare Production 2009.

Read the synopsis first to get an idea of what it's about, or else you'll most probably just be o.O the whole way hahah. It's a diary entry of a mad person:

12th October 1927

Time. It was only today did it dawn upon me that I was no longer in control of my actions. I had become a puppet of my own shadows that alone seemed more powerful than thy actual self. They follow me. I awake every morning with deep dread, feeling my insides intoxicated with the poison and the guilt I had brought upon myself. With every ticking of the clock I get more out of control, with every moment haunting me to revive horrors of the past. I have tried time and again to revive my soul, but no. Time is of the essence, and I’ve wasted every minute from the moment all this began. It is too late.

And yes we were supposed to look freaky and somewhat...demented haha. Hope the link works, CLICKY!

Dumbo could always fly, he just needed a magic feather

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Hello I love Gossip Girl. LOVE Chuck Bass even more hoho. Anyways, blog has been glooooomy lately so here's one of the funniest videos I have ever watched EVER! It's worth it really! Ta!

postsecrets from the broken-hearted

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I'm so afraid I'm never going to be okay again ): ): ):

been lost for the longest time

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Alice asked the Cheshire Cat, "What road do I take?"
The cat asked, "Where do you want to go?"
"I don't know," Alice answered.
"Then," said the cat, "it really doesn't matter, does it?"

(Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll)


Beautiful quote stolen from Bryan's blog (: (:

sometimes there is no "why", there just "is"

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i carry your heart with me
by e. e. cummings

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

I didn't get it then; I still don't get it now.

maybe it's not supposed to make sense

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in a ballroom there is dancing, in a forest there are trees

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I've been coughing non-stop the past few days. It's the uncontrollable kind so at night I lie there wheezing until I lose the energy to even ATTEMPT to stop coughing and just wait until I wheeze myself to sleep lol. Doctor prescribed antibiotics and I sincerely hope I remember to take 'em all!

Anyways, nothing much blog-worthy has happened lately so I have (once again) dug up old pictures to amuse you people whee whee. These are from the trip to the (then) newly-opened Lindt cafe! Personally I think it's way waaaay over-rated. Max B wins HANDS DOWN! Belgian waffles + hot chocolate with crunchy stuff in it ftw hahah! Ramblings aside, the few pictures that I'm bothering to put up! (: (:

You get to make your own hot chocolate and me being me, well I kinda spilled milk everywhere heehee oops (:

One of our many wonderful photogs (: (:

Okay bye. Off to wheeze somemore FML.

the day paws turned eighteen!

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Yeah I'm kind of on a roll with this blogging thing. Cause I blog when I am upset. So no blog equals happy carmen. Lots of blog posts equals not so happy carmen ): ): MUST STOP BLOGGING SOON haha.

So anyways, our very own shen aka PAWS turned legal last week! *Cue cheers and claps and wolf-whistles and doggy barks* (: Barged in halfway during one of her dance practices to surprise her with the cake and all wheeeee. Pictchas!

HELLO SHEN! Thanks for always being there for me. Love all the talks we have (from the very serious to the downright nonsensical EG birds with beaks that fall off when they hit something -.-)! And yeah everything else la, you know (: (: (:

Excuse my worse-than-usual eyebags ): Was up late rushing an assignment.

Honeycomb Cheesecake!

GASP! WHAT HAVE WE HERE? *wiggles eyebrows* (: (:

And later when we went to chill at Michele's.....I fell asleep heeheehee.

The edited version looks way emo-er. Lovin' it hahah. Ok till the next post (which hopefully is not soon gah). Take care!

I'm running back in time, towards everything I ever wanted and never could have

Hey hey.

Having one of my downs bleh ): Lately I feel like EVERYTHING I do just isn't good enough. It's like I'm epic FAIL-ing at everything fml.

Anyhows, very very belated happy pics from Camp Yumbunga a few months back. Just might cheer me up (:

The grandparents we never had. They run the place and cook for us and everything. I feel the love now (:

Crazy-ass pingpong.

When pool messes with your emotions (: (:

Most subdued game of Heart Attack EVER.

FREAKIN' TIRES OF DOOM >:(

Hahah yea so I fell and my shoe got stuck. Massive lack of upper-body strength LOL.

Happy campers!

Splits DO come in handy kids (: (: (:

FREAKIN' ROPE OF DOOM >:(

Okay so maybe I'm not so...talented with all these obstacle course thingys hahah.

LOOK OF MASSIVE CONCENTRATION >:)

And then here I am falling off hahah.

Reason everyone GAINED weight after camp: pancakes with jam and cream and butter and other yummy stuff (;

I love hip-hop michele + izzie! And Pussycat Guys hahah. Plenty of "freestyle" vids up on Facebook if you care to look (:

Nothing like a campfire to make you feel a little...alone heh emo. But I did have fun eating burnt marshmallows and at the sing-a-long thingy!

Awesome idea: Putting up little envelopes with your name on them. And if there's anything nice you want to say to someone you put a little note in their envelope. Feel-good factor 10/10 haha.

Group picture. Flare Dance guy girl ratio? Something like 1:10 (: (:

Ok that's about it. This didn't cheer me up at all lol. But hopefully it gave you people something to waste your time on haha. Ok off to mug for law test this Friday. See y'all.

nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard

HELLO ALL!

I am aware that I haven't been blogging hoho but there are just too many things to...blog about and I have bucketloads of other stuff to do including but not limited to dance practices, a law test this Friday, exam preparations and 9128731032 assignments all seemingly due AT THE SAME FREAKIN' TIME meh.

Anyways, last Friday was ICSS Ball! And my first ever gig lol. It went ok, very happy I didn't mess up (much). Pictures!

PS My awesome makeup was done by none other than THE AMAZING MICHELE LIM heeheehee. Thanks so much dear mwah mwah (: (:

And more dance-related pics from practices and stuff wheeee!

Yeah oh and I don't actually have any pics of the ball itself YET but might post it up if/when I feel like it hahah. Okay gonna SLEEP now (I LOVE SLEEP omg). Ok bye. Oh oh and watch this! Flare Dance Ensemble presents Maelstrom promo video!!! Lovin' it! Come watch us perform at Union Theatre on the 22nd, 23rd and 24th October. Tickets are $12 for students and you can get them from any cast member or from the Flare Booth at Union House during lunchtimes. I think Fridays and Saturdays are almost sold out so hurry!

Ok enough rambling. Watch the vid, seriously. I love it hahah. TA! (:

am I the only one who's insane?

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Hey you're you playing with my delirium,
and the longer I wait the harder I'm going to fall.

maybe I'm just not ready

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Hello!

Got back from Mount Dandenong yesterday after an awesome three days doing (almost) nothing (: (: But now it's back to the old routine of assignments and exam preparations and dance practices sigh. Feeling VERY VERY stressed out just thinking about it all but hoping to have a little fun along the way!

Totally missed Blitz today because I forgot + didn't have time anyway. Next big things coming up are Intro Macro assignment, ICSS Ball + performance and afterparty maybe. Did you know it's already week 9?? Only a month more to exams FML. Oh and flying back relatively early I guess. Most probably on the 20th of November. CANNOT WAIT CANNOT WAIT wheeee!

Ok really hope I get through this month or so with all my nerves intact. Will update and put up pictures if I feel like soon hehe. Most of them are on Facebook so that's where you should go!! And if you haven't yet, JOIN PLURK. Easiest way to keep in contact EVER trust me (:

Okay take care BUHBYES (:

we have changed but we're still the same

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HELLO!

So in the past week, yet another few friends flew off (this time to Scotland) to further their education. Seriously, EVERYONE IS LEAVING ME nooooo ): ): ): Hahah anyways all the best in university monkeys! I think it will be one of the best years of your life. Just remember to remember me (; UPDATE OFTEN ALSO OK! Mwah mwah!

Oh and cause I realized my last few posts have been all metaphorical and confusing and basically about nothing at all, here's a picture-filled one to make up for the drought! A post about what I've been up to since the last semester break ehe (:

Oh but this one is from way back in june after a yums hot chocolate session at Max Brenner's when it was still all cold and winter-y. Now it's all HELLO CRAZY MENOPAUSAL SPRING WEATHER (:

GIRLFRIENDS! (:

Then sometime ago was ryan's birthday. Sha stole his keys so we could enter his room illegally when he was out. And after lots of planning and texting and almost letting the cat out of bag thingies, we all ended up holed there waiting for him to come back so we could scare the living daylights out of him (: This here is his OHMYGOD HEART ATTACK moment. Yayyy for surprises that go according to plan wheeee!

And then a few days later we surprised these two ladies (;

LOVE YOU IZZIE + WENTING <3

heh heh I love candid pictures izzie looks like she's about to throw up :DDD

plurk girls! (: (:

Jsquare + peiqii + Hew Hew + jiahmin + izziekinz + yunniex + bubblemallow + tingting_56 + thelittlefairy

Picture at Union House (which is this kind of place where we hang out during lunch times or in between breaks and stuff)!

And then there was International Suit-Up Day. How I Met Your Mother's Barney Stinson-inspired holiday haha. Who else suited up?? (:

Ok so I'm not in a suit. I kind of don't have any, but I tried okaaaay (:

And then there was the terrific trio's joint birthday celebration at Se7en (;

Gotta love shen (: (: (:

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Then there was Festival of Nations! It was this EPIC carnival-slash-fair like thing selling food from around the world. There were also awesome cultural performances and stuff like that. Oh and one of my favourites were these boards where you could put up "Things Other People Don't Know About My Country".

My all-time faves: "malacca exists", "singapore the lion city don't have native lions lah", "people in sabah + sarawak don't live on trees! too many borneo ads" (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH) and "singapore is NOT in china". There was also this board detailing all the food international students missed the most but I didn't spend too much time there. Was depressing + made me hungry ahaha.

And and guess who organized it all??

None other than this EXTREMELY capable woman, ms tee yee hooi (;

Congrats on a job EXTREMELY WELL DONE bubbles. Love youuuuuuu!

And then there was also Flare Mid-Review. Oh for those not in the know, I kind of decided to join a dance club this year heh. And they hold an annual dance production in October. This year's is titled "Maelstrom". Go google what it means (; Anyways then all the dancers from all the different pieces get together during Mid-Review to show how far along each of us are. And then the artistic director of Flare comments and meets up with the choreographers and stuff. Intense but really really fun (:

Obviously taken after my turn, else I'd be a nervous wreck hoho. LOVE THE TULLE SKIRT btw but unfortunately it's not part of my costume.

And then a few days ago, attended Black and Bling Night which caitlin organized for charity!

And finally, cast photos from dance last week! (;

(: (:

And then there's the usual uni stuff. I think I haven't mentioned yet the four subjects I'm taking this sem: Professional Writing, Intercultural Communications (some linguistic subject), Introductory Macroeconomics (&$#@ the Keynesian Model!) and Principles of Business Law (WHICH I ABSOLUTELY LOVE heh). And the past few weeks when all of us were in assignment hell, spent lots of time + days + nights at the various libraries around campus.

And then of course there are the normal catch-up gossip sessions and makan sessions and STARBUCKS GREEN TEA FRAP moments. And sometimes it gets tough but uni is a blast. Hahah so yes I kind of gave this whole summary thing about what I've been up to right. Now all you overseas people had better start blogging religiously too (;

Take care all xx (:

life is a road and I wanna keep going (:

A friend left for the US this morning.
It's just beginning to hit me how permanent this all feels ):
Bon voyage and TAKE CARE YOU.

Hope you make loads of new friends and experience loads of new things and good luck with and I quote "the first hot chick in US" that you see hahah. Technically I'm already 28374230 miles away even before you left but yea, will miss ya...

you strange worm-like alien creature thing (: (: (:

I want to go back to believing everything,

and knowing nothing at all (:

KILLER WEEK IS OVER BAYBEH!

Time for a little rest and relaxation wheeee (: (: (: (: (:

Life is so good (:

I got a feeling...

that tonight's gonna be a good night (:

Catch-up session last night was epic!

Even though I abandoned my macroeconomics assignment and only slept at 8am after rushing it like mad. And now I have a 1500-word research essay + group presentation draft due tomorrow. Crazy week gah. But it was a very welcome time-out.

SECRETS REMAIN SECRETS OK (: